Thursday, January 24, 2013

Summing up my 2012!



This past year has had a lot of highs and lows for me and I have slacked a lot as far as blogging is concerned. I remember when I started Blogging in August 2011, I could not get enough of it and posted almost everyday. But with time as life goes on situations keep changing and sometimes so do our priorities.


My son was born in September 2012 and it brought me joy beyond anything but my term was difficult in the beginning and I just did not have the heart or strength to turn on my laptop, yet I managed to blog every now and then in the last months right upto the day I went into labor. I did try prettty hard to continue even after he was born and posted about once aweek.

The greatest tragedy hit me when my mum passed away on December 22, 2012, it's been a month today but recovering from the loss seems impossible. Life goes on it seems, there's a strange emptiness that I can't quite figure out how to remedy. Death being a reality yet seemed so far away that this incident gave me a bad reality check and I'm still struggling to come to grips with it.

As much as I want to stay away from things that used to appeal to me once, blogging has always given me my much needed respite and it continues to do so hence I have decided to keep going with it, plus I just cannot imagine giving up something I have worked so hard for and invested hours into.

I've also met some lovely people thanks to blogging and I plan to meet more and watch our Pakistani Beauty Blogger Community grow and prosper.

Much love to all my readers
Rakhshan aka Rikki
xox

19 comments:

  1. It's been an upside down year for you; I'm so happy for the birth of your son, and so sorry for the loss of your mother. Huge *hugs* hon. xx

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  2. *Hugs* You are a strong one ! Im so happy to know about your son.
    Im so sorry about your mom.
    Everything in the end will turn out alright :)
    xoxo <3

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  3. Aww *hugs*. I can totally understand your feelings. One week before your mum, my dad passed away. It is still hard to believe he is gone, it still feels he will come back, it still feels he is somewhere around. Even a thought of it, that he is gone and will never come back is the toughest thought. I sit in front of laptop and do nothing, and now it feels how important your loved ones are in your life, especially parents.
    Things have changed so much, and just like you thought, I thought to come back too for a thing I worked a lot.
    I am sure you are strong lady, and a strong mother. We are all there for you. It will take time to overcome the loss, but still this feeling will remain forever. Nothing and no one can replace the love and place of your parent in your heart. They will always stay there with good memories.
    Be strong! xx

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    1. its exactly the same with me, cant believe i'll never get to hear her voice again ever in my life:/
      thank you so much rabiyah! xox

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  4. It's good to see you back *hugs* . I am so so sorry for your loss . I don't have words what to say . You are a strong human being and we all are here for you . You are never alone . I have been through a failed relationship in 2012 and trust me blogging me kept my mind in senses . I am looking forward for some wonderful posts from you .

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    1. thanks a lot for your kind words sarah! so sorry for your hardship! xox

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  5. Hi Rakhshan I am so saddened by your news and so sorry for your loss, I can't imagine what a difficult time it must be, sending a big hug your way. Give yourself this time to grieve and hopefully with time, things will appear clearer. Hope you keeping well. I was so thrilled when you told me the news about your son.

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    1. thanks Sam! yeah it was so sudden and unexpected but then the loss of parent can never be expected anyways! xox

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  6. Totally love this pic!

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  7. Keep on posting and I hope you have a fab year!

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    x

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  8. Im really sad for you, so sorry for your loss. Prayers go out for your mother. may she rest in peace and for your entire family. Take care of yourself

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  9. I've no words how horrid yet flagrant situation is that when you lost the one who you loved the most and sometimes a WORLD to you and indeed parents are WORLD to us.. But the harsh reality is one day we all have to go but still we aint ready to accept it especially when our loved ones gone.... Believe me my blog is a result of my depression I wrote my heart content there when I had been through a failed relation ship and I was near being comatose cause of excessive depression and stress on my nerbes and still Im coping up with it but this blogging and my blog is a place where I forget my all depression , tension and worries.... Im sure words can't heal your pain and we definetly not able to forget your mom but time is a biggest healer it will heal your pain gradually but marks going to be there forever !!! I'll pray for your strength that you can cope up with it *Hugs*Kisses*

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  10. Very sorry for your loss, I think we can't even imagine being without our parent's but of course, it is something that will eventually happen. The important thing is to learn how to cope with it on a daily basis, you never can forget them but you can try to pray for them and just remember them in a positive way.

    I hope you are able to keep your strength up InshaAllah x x

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